It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
-Anonymous
I woke up this morning with a jolt, it hitting me that I have said (out loud, mind you) that I am preparing for an athletic feat involving scaling not one, but several mountains, and that I am not only trying to survive it, but race it!
This morning, the part of me that enjoys more...shall we say...hedonistic activities...caught word of my commitment and said WTF? You're going to WHAT?
I don't know why it took so long for this other part of me to realize my plans, maybe she was a bit in denial. But she is no longer and she is on a mission to abort this little dream of mine.
She knows all my weak spots and makes big digs regarding the facts that I am not particularly athletic and have never raced. Ever. How hard it will be to train with a wildcard 2-year-old and husband gone half the time. She knows how to get to me. She taunts me, plays with my mind, beckons with wine and chocolates, a cozy couch, and food TV.
But the more motivated, healthy, enthusiastic, perhaps a bit annoyingly bouncy and tiger-ish part of me has weaponry of its own. Everything I have ever done that I have been proud of I didn't think I could do. I was scared of it. I didn't know how to do it. But every time I realized if I just jumped in and did it rather than over-think it, I could do it.
My philosophy thus far is that all you need to have is the courage to begin, to throw yourself over that edge, over that cliff of disbelief. Once you are falling, you can figure out the rest. The courage is in beginning.
I know this philosophy is not for everyone. It is kind of extreme. I am kind of extreme. I have spent quite a lot of my life throwing myself over cliffs, so to speak, knowing that once I had begun, I could figure out the rest. But it is a working philosophy and can be applied to all kinds of things. Mostly it requires a lot of faith and the courage to jump.
Today my alter ego made herself known, made her arguments, enticed me with her charms. But even she knows I am already gone; I am already in free fall.
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WONDERFUL
WONDERFUL
You are going to be soooooo proud of yourself ...as are the rest of us!
GO JO GOOOO!!!
i love the picture. and you should tune into future jo's voice. and how proud she's going to be of you when you cross that finish line.
you're doing awesome. you and my sister should start talking. she started training in the beginning of january... she just got back from running 6.75 miles. my little sister!
you can totally do this.
Yes, you can totally do it. Me... not so much. Mostly because I don't want to. But you DOOOOO want to. Hence.
Go-girl!
BTW: I went cliff jumping-once. My son loves it. But I'm getting too old for that sort of thing.
My husband and kids have gone bridge jumping too. I didn't do that one. It was soooo high.
Way to go, Jo! Keep it up--but indulge that hedonistic part just a wee bit so she doesn't get too pouty!
It's awesome. To push yourself just a little bit further each time. And to say, wow ... it wasn't that bad! And to do even better next time. HI JO!!! Keep up the great work. I'm sure we'll be in touch. ; )
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